Yes I have gotten off my backside and started getting up to date!
I have nothing to do in my evenings for the next few days so will do this over my one other day off (Saturday) and my evenings. I will stop spamming now and have some lined up for tomorrow.
How has everyone been?!
I've been busy! With no Assistant Manager I've been working all the over time I can get. A lot of good fun is being had and work is starting to get better in little bits. I'm starting to feel happier in myself again which is giving me great focus on what I'm doing. Its all going good!
Though I do have a question for Latvian readers.
We now have a Latvian at work (small world! I've always been amazed that I have Latvian readers on here now I'm working with a Latvian!) and I get on with him a lot. He's going through some tough times and his name day is coming up. I've done some research on name days, for him his name day is more important then his birthday (he gave me the wrong date for his birthday at first but was adamant he'd never get his name day wrong when I asked if he'd told me the wrong date for that too!) it seems like an important day for him.
So... Even though it doesn't seem to be what you do I've made him a card for his name day. I was wondering if you could leave a message on here with something to write in the card? Something in Latvian or Russian, just to give it a little more special meaning. He's on his own, he's getting divorced and his ex wife was the only person he knew in Plymouth, I took him out shopping the other week and got a photo of him on his first double decker ride and put that as the photo on the card to make it special.
I'm not sure what to put in the card. Any suggestions from Latvian readers would be grateful! Any kind of message whether its simply saying Happy Name Day, or something nice that you say to friends I don't care. Any help will be appreciated!!!
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30 January 2014
3 January 2014
Back from the Holidays!
So I hope everyone had a lovely holiday!
Mine was alright, I was banned from the laptop and had to work quite a bit anyway so I wasn't here much (as you can tell) but I'm back once again to fail miserably at everything I plan on doing.
At least I'm honest on that score!
Mine was alright, I was banned from the laptop and had to work quite a bit anyway so I wasn't here much (as you can tell) but I'm back once again to fail miserably at everything I plan on doing.
At least I'm honest on that score!
13 December 2013
A Whole Year of Fairy Tail!
So on the 5th of this month (yeah long gone now!) it was a year since my first Fairy Tail blog!
Scary to think its been a year.
I enjoy this series as you know, it saved this blog being the only thing I constantly blog about, yeah there are weeks I miss it but its always been here.
Won't it be great when the Fairy Tail anime comes back? We'll be back to two bouts of Fairy Tail a week and I won't get into too much trouble just fan girling over Ichiya and such like.
It only just struck me, most of the year has come and gone in a flash, half our staff has changed one way or the other in our store and I've had such an emotional year but where it comes to Fairy Tail it feels like a lifetime since the anime stopped and even longer that I've been reviewing it.
Lets hope we get another great year! And I will probably in the next few weeks do an update on Favourite Characters etc because it has kind of changed.
Scary to think its been a year.
I enjoy this series as you know, it saved this blog being the only thing I constantly blog about, yeah there are weeks I miss it but its always been here.
Won't it be great when the Fairy Tail anime comes back? We'll be back to two bouts of Fairy Tail a week and I won't get into too much trouble just fan girling over Ichiya and such like.
It only just struck me, most of the year has come and gone in a flash, half our staff has changed one way or the other in our store and I've had such an emotional year but where it comes to Fairy Tail it feels like a lifetime since the anime stopped and even longer that I've been reviewing it.
Lets hope we get another great year! And I will probably in the next few weeks do an update on Favourite Characters etc because it has kind of changed.
10 December 2013
Really trying. I promise!
So I kind of failed over my holiday to catch up. I apologise.
BUT I currently have 27 blogs scheduled to come out in the coming days with reviews up to date for Gingitsune, Super Seisyun Brothers, Miss Monochrome and Nagi no Asukara.
THAT is what I've done today.
I won't be able to do any extra tomorrow as I'm working then out in the evening, but I'll start reviewing a few more on Wednesday after work and add them on.
Currently Gingitsune is at 12pm every day, Miss Monochrome at 12:30 and 1:30, Nagi no Asukara at 1pm and Super Seisyun Brothers at 2:30 and 3:30.
On Wednesday I'll add in some to come out at 2pm and 3pm (I think I need to give Kyousouigga one more episode, and it'll purely be catch up on ones I've already done like Coppelion, BlazBlue etc) next week, because Gingitsune won't be every day at 12pm I'll have initial reaction blogs for some I haven't already looked at and if any of them are 100% YES I'll carry on with one or two blogs a day till I'm up to date.
THAT IS THE PLAN!
Of course with the way I am I'll come to my laptop on Wednesday, no doubt with a migraine from over heating at work, and think fuck it I'm going to bed. Thursday I'm going somewhere in the late afternoon with my mum but no doubt I won't wake up till an hour before I have to go (knowing me) so there is still PLENTY of room for the good work of today to be fucked up completely but I'm trying.
Added to this I'm working Friday BUT I'll have the last two chapters of Fairy Tail reviewed by then and will do the new one the moment I come home. Again I might be migrainey but that is the plan.
AND I plan on returning to One Piece next week AS WELL AS finishing Penguindrum (deep breath people, it will happen!) and Kore wa Zombie desu ka?
PLUS (yes there is a plus) I am going to nail my Pokémon / One Piece retro anime reviews to the last Friday of the month HOPEFULLY starting this month. So on every hour starting at midnight you'll have a Pokémon blog and every half hour starting from half past midnight you'll have a One Piece anime blog.
That is the plan (though it might have to be next month on the last one because of Christmas and I am putting myself out doing all this... I'm special me!)
Phew.
Not only that but I have my own blogs going up on http://believeingeek.wordpress.com/ I do a weekly Minecraft blog as well as some others so always check it out over there for extra ramblings from me!
That is my wish list for the next coming weeks. The winter anime WILL BE PICKED UP the second it comes out. AND I WILL WRITE PREVIEWS FOR EACH OF THEM!!! Yes I will look up info so that the opening paragraph of the initial thoughts blogs have something interesting in them.
Look at me trying to be professional!
Well enjoy the blogs and hopefully I'll keep it up!
BUT I currently have 27 blogs scheduled to come out in the coming days with reviews up to date for Gingitsune, Super Seisyun Brothers, Miss Monochrome and Nagi no Asukara.
THAT is what I've done today.
I won't be able to do any extra tomorrow as I'm working then out in the evening, but I'll start reviewing a few more on Wednesday after work and add them on.
Currently Gingitsune is at 12pm every day, Miss Monochrome at 12:30 and 1:30, Nagi no Asukara at 1pm and Super Seisyun Brothers at 2:30 and 3:30.
On Wednesday I'll add in some to come out at 2pm and 3pm (I think I need to give Kyousouigga one more episode, and it'll purely be catch up on ones I've already done like Coppelion, BlazBlue etc) next week, because Gingitsune won't be every day at 12pm I'll have initial reaction blogs for some I haven't already looked at and if any of them are 100% YES I'll carry on with one or two blogs a day till I'm up to date.
THAT IS THE PLAN!
Of course with the way I am I'll come to my laptop on Wednesday, no doubt with a migraine from over heating at work, and think fuck it I'm going to bed. Thursday I'm going somewhere in the late afternoon with my mum but no doubt I won't wake up till an hour before I have to go (knowing me) so there is still PLENTY of room for the good work of today to be fucked up completely but I'm trying.
Added to this I'm working Friday BUT I'll have the last two chapters of Fairy Tail reviewed by then and will do the new one the moment I come home. Again I might be migrainey but that is the plan.
AND I plan on returning to One Piece next week AS WELL AS finishing Penguindrum (deep breath people, it will happen!) and Kore wa Zombie desu ka?
PLUS (yes there is a plus) I am going to nail my Pokémon / One Piece retro anime reviews to the last Friday of the month HOPEFULLY starting this month. So on every hour starting at midnight you'll have a Pokémon blog and every half hour starting from half past midnight you'll have a One Piece anime blog.
That is the plan (though it might have to be next month on the last one because of Christmas and I am putting myself out doing all this... I'm special me!)
Phew.
Not only that but I have my own blogs going up on http://believeingeek.wordpress.com/ I do a weekly Minecraft blog as well as some others so always check it out over there for extra ramblings from me!
That is my wish list for the next coming weeks. The winter anime WILL BE PICKED UP the second it comes out. AND I WILL WRITE PREVIEWS FOR EACH OF THEM!!! Yes I will look up info so that the opening paragraph of the initial thoughts blogs have something interesting in them.
Look at me trying to be professional!
Well enjoy the blogs and hopefully I'll keep it up!
29 November 2013
Sister pains...
So my sister has decided that she's turning her back totally on me and my mum and now she's got her fantastic boyfriend (who is nice but doesn't have a job or anything... Like all of them) she's going to get her own flat one way or the other. Earlier this week she had a viewing for a council flat and today a private one, both as far away from Eggbuckland as she can get.
You might think good for her, unfortunately maybe not so good for my niece and NOT so good for her when she finds us unwelcoming in the future.
Put it this way...
She met this guy (again he's lovely but still) on a Friday, by the Sunday he was in our house and has hardly left since then. She's become really grumpy and refuses to talk to me or my mum when we are home to the point that we've been banished upstairs completely. The only time she talks to us is when she wants something or is moaning about college. She eats the food my mum buys for everyone has made the whole downstairs STINK of stale smoke, keeps her daughter upstairs playing so her and her partner can watch whatever they want and do whatever they want, uses the internet without paying for it any more and is now just not telling my mum anything.
I think my mum would be happy for her if she got her own place but she doesn't want her walking out the door one day and not coming back without any warning. My mum suffers from depression and that is what my middle sister did and she ended up dead.
No that isn't dramatic it is just stating the facts, she ran away from my nans (she's already refused to come home) to live with her boyfriend and a few years later we got a knock on the door to tell us she was dead.
That won't happen with Catherine, she isn't that dim, but she hasn't thought things through and she doesn't want me or my mum spoiling this imaginary wonderful life she's going to have when she moves out.
She won't want to realize that she'll have to buy all her food, all Christy's pack lunches and all the food that her boyfriends (hopefully her apartment will come with a revolving door) eat. She will have to pay for a new computer or else make her notebook work. She'll have to pay for internet, heating, gas, phone line, TV license, council tax, water rates etc....
Its alright she gives my mum about £20 a week if my mum remembers but she'll have so much more she'll have to spend out on.
Also without my mum....
She'll have to make sure Christy is at school every day on time, picked up on time, Barne Barton is too far for my mum who is meant to be a full time carer for my nan to travel so whether she has to be late at college or not she'll have to get her, or else pay out for morning and after school clubs.
She won't have my mum to bully into taking Christy when she wants to go out drinking or quickly go out to see her friends.
She won't have my mum reminding her to clean Christy's finger nails every day.
She won't have my mum to look after Christy at 2am when she's had a bad dream and she's too tired to look after her.
She won't have me to do the many things she asks me to do online.
And the way she's gone about it my mum won't want to help her out either. Why would she? She's acted weird all week, the day before she had her viewing earlier this week was the day she told my mum about it and she wouldn't have told my mum about the private viewing today if it hadn't been for the fact she's stupid enough to think my cousin would be guarantor for her.
Its gone from everyone trying to work together and us all helping her as much as she needs to her turning her back on us, never speaking to us even if we're talking to her but taking it for granted we'll look after Christy.
It is purely because she's got a friend (now with three children) who had her own house (council) and then found a guy (father to the last daughter who was born this week) who moved in within a week and now they are looking for a place together. I think she likes this guy so much that is what she wants to do. The problem being the guy her friend found HAS A JOB! A decent paying one. She's now off of many of her benefits and still gets more than my sister will because she gets benefits for THREE kids.
My sister seems to think that she needs to be out before Christmas, my mum said she'd help her move out (kicking her out basically) in February. Why? Because me and my mum will have to pay bedroom tax and we don't have the money for it. Not only that but if she moves half way across Plymouth from us when is she planning on bringing Christy here for presents?
My mum doesn't want anything bad happening to my niece but as my sister is becoming more childish about the whole situation the more upset my mum is about it all.
I want her to move out and I want her to fail (a bit) so that she grows up and THEN can do it right. I hate that she had a kid, got a free ride because of that and now will get a flat/house because of it. Nothing bad HAS happened to her and she lives in a bubble with her other friends who have moved out but because they have more than one kid get more money then her do live in this nothing will go wrong bubble.
I want her to get a grip, something she won't do here and something she won't do if things don't fail.
Its stressing my mum out not only for the reason's I've stated but because if she just walks out and doesn't take everything she owns we'll be in a house, paying bedroom tax we can't afford with all her stuff STILL blocking the house up. When she goes so much will disappear that we can do up the house (I'm trying to be very positive about the bedroom tax) but my mum can't help but feeling that we'll be made homeless after not being able to pay the bedroom tax and not being "important" enough for help together.
Ahhh well. Just some ramblings.
You might think good for her, unfortunately maybe not so good for my niece and NOT so good for her when she finds us unwelcoming in the future.
Put it this way...
She met this guy (again he's lovely but still) on a Friday, by the Sunday he was in our house and has hardly left since then. She's become really grumpy and refuses to talk to me or my mum when we are home to the point that we've been banished upstairs completely. The only time she talks to us is when she wants something or is moaning about college. She eats the food my mum buys for everyone has made the whole downstairs STINK of stale smoke, keeps her daughter upstairs playing so her and her partner can watch whatever they want and do whatever they want, uses the internet without paying for it any more and is now just not telling my mum anything.
I think my mum would be happy for her if she got her own place but she doesn't want her walking out the door one day and not coming back without any warning. My mum suffers from depression and that is what my middle sister did and she ended up dead.
No that isn't dramatic it is just stating the facts, she ran away from my nans (she's already refused to come home) to live with her boyfriend and a few years later we got a knock on the door to tell us she was dead.
That won't happen with Catherine, she isn't that dim, but she hasn't thought things through and she doesn't want me or my mum spoiling this imaginary wonderful life she's going to have when she moves out.
She won't want to realize that she'll have to buy all her food, all Christy's pack lunches and all the food that her boyfriends (hopefully her apartment will come with a revolving door) eat. She will have to pay for a new computer or else make her notebook work. She'll have to pay for internet, heating, gas, phone line, TV license, council tax, water rates etc....
Its alright she gives my mum about £20 a week if my mum remembers but she'll have so much more she'll have to spend out on.
Also without my mum....
She'll have to make sure Christy is at school every day on time, picked up on time, Barne Barton is too far for my mum who is meant to be a full time carer for my nan to travel so whether she has to be late at college or not she'll have to get her, or else pay out for morning and after school clubs.
She won't have my mum to bully into taking Christy when she wants to go out drinking or quickly go out to see her friends.
She won't have my mum reminding her to clean Christy's finger nails every day.
She won't have my mum to look after Christy at 2am when she's had a bad dream and she's too tired to look after her.
She won't have me to do the many things she asks me to do online.
And the way she's gone about it my mum won't want to help her out either. Why would she? She's acted weird all week, the day before she had her viewing earlier this week was the day she told my mum about it and she wouldn't have told my mum about the private viewing today if it hadn't been for the fact she's stupid enough to think my cousin would be guarantor for her.
Its gone from everyone trying to work together and us all helping her as much as she needs to her turning her back on us, never speaking to us even if we're talking to her but taking it for granted we'll look after Christy.
It is purely because she's got a friend (now with three children) who had her own house (council) and then found a guy (father to the last daughter who was born this week) who moved in within a week and now they are looking for a place together. I think she likes this guy so much that is what she wants to do. The problem being the guy her friend found HAS A JOB! A decent paying one. She's now off of many of her benefits and still gets more than my sister will because she gets benefits for THREE kids.
My sister seems to think that she needs to be out before Christmas, my mum said she'd help her move out (kicking her out basically) in February. Why? Because me and my mum will have to pay bedroom tax and we don't have the money for it. Not only that but if she moves half way across Plymouth from us when is she planning on bringing Christy here for presents?
My mum doesn't want anything bad happening to my niece but as my sister is becoming more childish about the whole situation the more upset my mum is about it all.
I want her to move out and I want her to fail (a bit) so that she grows up and THEN can do it right. I hate that she had a kid, got a free ride because of that and now will get a flat/house because of it. Nothing bad HAS happened to her and she lives in a bubble with her other friends who have moved out but because they have more than one kid get more money then her do live in this nothing will go wrong bubble.
I want her to get a grip, something she won't do here and something she won't do if things don't fail.
Its stressing my mum out not only for the reason's I've stated but because if she just walks out and doesn't take everything she owns we'll be in a house, paying bedroom tax we can't afford with all her stuff STILL blocking the house up. When she goes so much will disappear that we can do up the house (I'm trying to be very positive about the bedroom tax) but my mum can't help but feeling that we'll be made homeless after not being able to pay the bedroom tax and not being "important" enough for help together.
Ahhh well. Just some ramblings.
25 November 2013
Cross your fingers anime fans...
Today should be the start of a week long "catch up" on everything. Hopefully.
Plus I'll hopefully, possibly, be doing my One Piece reviews again!
As always life got on top of me but I have a week off, no one wants to talk about The Day of the Doctor without screaming at each other so anime it is!
I apologise for being crap once more but I am determined I will get better!
Plus I'll hopefully, possibly, be doing my One Piece reviews again!
As always life got on top of me but I have a week off, no one wants to talk about The Day of the Doctor without screaming at each other so anime it is!
I apologise for being crap once more but I am determined I will get better!
15 November 2013
The reason I avoid the outdoors...
So today summed up why I hate going out.
The Plymouth Christmas lights were turned on today so me and David decided to go in before he went to work, we had an enjoyable evening, I brought myself a sausage and a pretzel, we saw some cheerleaders and ice skating stuff and I got over excited by coming face to face with three GAWJUS reindeer!
Then just at the end of the evening I was taking photos of the X-Mas parade, someone walked in front of me just as I took a photo, I did a mock OMG face (as you do) to David and was about to go back to photo taking when out of the corner of my eye I saw someone trying to make eye contact with me and the word "pathetic" coming out of her mouth, so as she obviously was saying it to me for some reason I just smiled and went "yeah" as you do in a bewildered state, she then walked in front of me looked me straight in the face and went "no I mean you".
I was taken right back by that. I guess it showed on my face because she started a torrent of abuse about how I should get a perspective as the man only walked in front of me. Understanding that she obviously got her wires crossed I managed to softly squeak out "its a joke" to which she rolled her eyes and went "sure" before turning away with her child and forgetting that she had even possibly just ruined someone's evening.
As you know I'm not the most out there person, I hate being seen, I love walking behind whoever I'm with so they see them and not me, I don't like people talking to me if I don't know them so having a stranger berate me for no reason other to make their own sense of importance felt completely destroyed my evening.
Over reaction?
Possibly.
But I don't like crowds, I don't like people and I avoid going into the city centre when events like this happen for this exact reason. Everyone tells me no one will ever talk to you or have a go at you in the street unless you do something wrong and I guess everyone lives in their own little bubble thinking no one will care about their "in-jokes" or whatever they are doing.
So when that bubble is burst by a busy body, and that bubble is a fragile one belonging to someone who is trying their best not to freak out that they are in a crowd... Kinda ruined my day.
I just don't understand why she had to do it?
Lets face it unless she seems to think she's the centre of the universe it was obvious the face I made (which was followed by a enormous smile) wasn't to her, I wasn't looking for her comment on anything, she was just another face in the crowd (who was ignoring the pleas to stay away from where she was walking as the parade was coming, too busy ruining peoples evenings in general that one!) But she took time out of her life to berate someone she didn't know, call them out on the injustices that were apparently done for no reason.
What a role model! Her kid will grow up to be a wonderful person, or else hate his mother for being a rude busy body!
Thing is she is lucky she was talking to a meek and shy person who lets these things get on top of her, if it was my sister she would have gotten it back twice as badly. She would have caused a right big argument IN FRONT of her (about 3,4 year old) son. If she seemed to think I was looking for her approval then she can't have thought I was a easy target, so why the hell would she put herself in that position?
I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but it is one of those events that stay in your mind. Maybe I'll forget it in a day or two but it was so out of the blue and took me a second or two to realize it had even happened!
So my lesson has been learnt!
Do not make funny faces just in case they are misinterpreted as being a terribley pathetic whatever.
Hopefully she'll learn one day not to stick her overly grown nose into other people's business and be unneedfully rude and nasty to people she doesn't know just because she thinks she's better then anyone else!
The Plymouth Christmas lights were turned on today so me and David decided to go in before he went to work, we had an enjoyable evening, I brought myself a sausage and a pretzel, we saw some cheerleaders and ice skating stuff and I got over excited by coming face to face with three GAWJUS reindeer!
Then just at the end of the evening I was taking photos of the X-Mas parade, someone walked in front of me just as I took a photo, I did a mock OMG face (as you do) to David and was about to go back to photo taking when out of the corner of my eye I saw someone trying to make eye contact with me and the word "pathetic" coming out of her mouth, so as she obviously was saying it to me for some reason I just smiled and went "yeah" as you do in a bewildered state, she then walked in front of me looked me straight in the face and went "no I mean you".
I was taken right back by that. I guess it showed on my face because she started a torrent of abuse about how I should get a perspective as the man only walked in front of me. Understanding that she obviously got her wires crossed I managed to softly squeak out "its a joke" to which she rolled her eyes and went "sure" before turning away with her child and forgetting that she had even possibly just ruined someone's evening.
As you know I'm not the most out there person, I hate being seen, I love walking behind whoever I'm with so they see them and not me, I don't like people talking to me if I don't know them so having a stranger berate me for no reason other to make their own sense of importance felt completely destroyed my evening.
Over reaction?
Possibly.
But I don't like crowds, I don't like people and I avoid going into the city centre when events like this happen for this exact reason. Everyone tells me no one will ever talk to you or have a go at you in the street unless you do something wrong and I guess everyone lives in their own little bubble thinking no one will care about their "in-jokes" or whatever they are doing.
So when that bubble is burst by a busy body, and that bubble is a fragile one belonging to someone who is trying their best not to freak out that they are in a crowd... Kinda ruined my day.
I just don't understand why she had to do it?
Lets face it unless she seems to think she's the centre of the universe it was obvious the face I made (which was followed by a enormous smile) wasn't to her, I wasn't looking for her comment on anything, she was just another face in the crowd (who was ignoring the pleas to stay away from where she was walking as the parade was coming, too busy ruining peoples evenings in general that one!) But she took time out of her life to berate someone she didn't know, call them out on the injustices that were apparently done for no reason.
What a role model! Her kid will grow up to be a wonderful person, or else hate his mother for being a rude busy body!
Thing is she is lucky she was talking to a meek and shy person who lets these things get on top of her, if it was my sister she would have gotten it back twice as badly. She would have caused a right big argument IN FRONT of her (about 3,4 year old) son. If she seemed to think I was looking for her approval then she can't have thought I was a easy target, so why the hell would she put herself in that position?
I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but it is one of those events that stay in your mind. Maybe I'll forget it in a day or two but it was so out of the blue and took me a second or two to realize it had even happened!
So my lesson has been learnt!
Do not make funny faces just in case they are misinterpreted as being a terribley pathetic whatever.
Hopefully she'll learn one day not to stick her overly grown nose into other people's business and be unneedfully rude and nasty to people she doesn't know just because she thinks she's better then anyone else!
3 November 2013
Need a new laptop....
So the most bizarre accident is going to lead me to needing a new laptop.
I've had this one for a number of years now and love it to pieces. It has crumbs under the key that sometimes I need to smush down with frantic button smashing, one of the first things to happen to it was my niece ripping off a button which from time to time falls off but I replace it pretty easily, its slow and hates being charged (the battery is now pretty much dead so have to keep it plugged in but that can be a chore as if the lead isn't touching the pin in JUST THE RIGHT WAY it won't charge!)
But it is my baby and I love it...
Yesterday my bloody iPhone fell out of my pocket when I was picking the laptop up to move out of my mums room and back into mine and fell on the enter key, leaving a nasty mark and making it fall off.
Unlike the other key I can kind of replace when it falls off (it is a bit stiff but I don't use that key anyway) this one just won't stay on. I can get it back into place but pressing it a few times makes it fall right back off again.
Why is this so terrible?
I have no answer to that other then its my baby. I have a mild OCD and couldn't NOT have a button there but this isn't the only problem. Some of the buttons have started to stick, notably the n and b button, as I said above the charger is a pain and if it isn't charging and I don't notice within 5 minutes it is turning itself off and it goes so slow at times.... In other words this is kind of the final nail in the coffin for my poor lovable companion.
What makes it worse is that obviously laptops are expensive... I have saved so much money this year, all my overtime has gone straight into my savings. I could right now have about £1,300 in savings. COULD have... Unfortunately bills being higher then they should have been and a number of other things have meant I've had to dip in and LAST month was the worst! I went from having £977 to £600 in a week! My mums phone bill was too high and she didn't put the extra money in to my bank account, I miscalculated by £3 but ended up paying about £50 or so more back in because of other things. That on top of my bill being unusually high for my phone (had to phone a 0844 number) and going from having no overtime to lots of overtime my money just seeped out.
So now I have £700 (boosted with my overtime from this month) with Christmas around the corner and me never going to get the kind of overtime my old manager used to give me (for various reasons.) All my hard work looks like it'll go to waste. This is about the time of year I'll be using my laptop the most so if I can't find a way to get the enter button to stay put I'm going to have to dip in. About £400 for that will take me to £300 saved which seeing this is all my overtime since February kind of is depressing.
I think that is mainly down to the fact I'm not used to having money anyway so looking at my savings I was so proud to save that amount, to be honest £300 with a little more on its way is enough for what I wanted the money for (holiday, well weekend away) and I do have a tendency of looking at it and thinking "nah I'll just leave it there till I find something I REALLY want" but in my life my laptop is the same (right now) as a cooker or washing machine is to real adults. I need it and unfortunately I'll have to dip into the old savings.
Please let there be a Christmas miracle coming my way and I get a new job or even just a second or Christmas job. I'm starting to feel like I'll never have money again!
I've had this one for a number of years now and love it to pieces. It has crumbs under the key that sometimes I need to smush down with frantic button smashing, one of the first things to happen to it was my niece ripping off a button which from time to time falls off but I replace it pretty easily, its slow and hates being charged (the battery is now pretty much dead so have to keep it plugged in but that can be a chore as if the lead isn't touching the pin in JUST THE RIGHT WAY it won't charge!)
But it is my baby and I love it...
Yesterday my bloody iPhone fell out of my pocket when I was picking the laptop up to move out of my mums room and back into mine and fell on the enter key, leaving a nasty mark and making it fall off.
Unlike the other key I can kind of replace when it falls off (it is a bit stiff but I don't use that key anyway) this one just won't stay on. I can get it back into place but pressing it a few times makes it fall right back off again.
Why is this so terrible?
I have no answer to that other then its my baby. I have a mild OCD and couldn't NOT have a button there but this isn't the only problem. Some of the buttons have started to stick, notably the n and b button, as I said above the charger is a pain and if it isn't charging and I don't notice within 5 minutes it is turning itself off and it goes so slow at times.... In other words this is kind of the final nail in the coffin for my poor lovable companion.
What makes it worse is that obviously laptops are expensive... I have saved so much money this year, all my overtime has gone straight into my savings. I could right now have about £1,300 in savings. COULD have... Unfortunately bills being higher then they should have been and a number of other things have meant I've had to dip in and LAST month was the worst! I went from having £977 to £600 in a week! My mums phone bill was too high and she didn't put the extra money in to my bank account, I miscalculated by £3 but ended up paying about £50 or so more back in because of other things. That on top of my bill being unusually high for my phone (had to phone a 0844 number) and going from having no overtime to lots of overtime my money just seeped out.
So now I have £700 (boosted with my overtime from this month) with Christmas around the corner and me never going to get the kind of overtime my old manager used to give me (for various reasons.) All my hard work looks like it'll go to waste. This is about the time of year I'll be using my laptop the most so if I can't find a way to get the enter button to stay put I'm going to have to dip in. About £400 for that will take me to £300 saved which seeing this is all my overtime since February kind of is depressing.
I think that is mainly down to the fact I'm not used to having money anyway so looking at my savings I was so proud to save that amount, to be honest £300 with a little more on its way is enough for what I wanted the money for (holiday, well weekend away) and I do have a tendency of looking at it and thinking "nah I'll just leave it there till I find something I REALLY want" but in my life my laptop is the same (right now) as a cooker or washing machine is to real adults. I need it and unfortunately I'll have to dip into the old savings.
Please let there be a Christmas miracle coming my way and I get a new job or even just a second or Christmas job. I'm starting to feel like I'll never have money again!
14 October 2013
Bowling For Soup in just over a week!
So yes my next big thing this year (and possibly last) will be the Bowling for Soup Farewell Tour.
I've been a fan of theirs since I was a teenager and they were the first band I went to see live, this is their last tour in the UK so me and my sister (also a big fan and went to the concert with me so they were both our first band live) are going to say goodbye to one of the best bands out there.
Any photos I take will PROBABLY be mainly of Eric because I do quite like him... I will be sharing all photos. The concert is next Tuesday, it can't come quick enough!
I've been a fan of theirs since I was a teenager and they were the first band I went to see live, this is their last tour in the UK so me and my sister (also a big fan and went to the concert with me so they were both our first band live) are going to say goodbye to one of the best bands out there.
Any photos I take will PROBABLY be mainly of Eric because I do quite like him... I will be sharing all photos. The concert is next Tuesday, it can't come quick enough!
11 October 2013
Guinea Pig lovers please help!
So I brought my lovely boy a few weeks ago as you will all know who read my ramblings on a regular basis.
I love him to bits and his name is Mack.
We brought him with a bunny called Barely, they were both aggressive towards other animals but liked each other hence us buying them together, I felt bad that Mack would be left on his own. We kept them in a hutch outside since buying them, that actually might have been over a month ago now! Doesn't feel like it.
Anyway over the weekend I started to worry about Mack so ran out and brought a new cage, lemon scented wood shavings and hay for his bedding. I cleaned the cage when I got it home put down a layer of newspaper, the wood shavings and the hay in the bed side of the cage and put Mack in his new home.
That was Saturday, it is now Friday (only just) and we've had no problems. I cleaned him on Wednesday and will do it every Wednesday, I kind of "clean" the corner where his water bottle leaks every day and put down a bit more of the wood shavings so he doesn't have a damp cage.
He has a mineral block in there, a hay rack filled with blueberry hay, a little dish and a bigger dish both with a mixture of muesli and hay (trying to introduce him to muesli as he'd only ever been eating hay), a pile of sticks as well as a climbing toy that he nibbles on.
I had help from the guys at Pets at Home picking up the stuff I needed, checked the labels on all the treats for the foods that I know he can't have (I'd been reading a blog for a while which told me that even though it might say its for Guinea Pigs it might have things that are bad for them in it) and thought the rest would be easy enough!
I know pets get ill, I've had hamsters, dogs, mice and all sorts before but tonight instead of celebrating with other Whovians world wide I've been reading blogs that seem to fill me with dread!
All I want is simple advice.
1/ Should I be using scented wood shavings?
Everywhere I go I see the answer is no, why the heck would Pets at Home be selling something and telling you to buy it if its bad for them? So far Mack hasn't had any problems that I've noticed but I'm worried he'll suddenly die from all sorts now. If I shouldn't be using scented wood shavings should I be using it at all? Is it better to use a fleece? What is the best thing for him?
2/Do Guinea Pigs ears change a little whilst growing?
This sounds a little weird so I'll explain.
I got him at 6 months, he's probably about 7 or 8 months now (give or take of course as he might not have been completely 6 months when I got him) I'm sure when I got him and till today his ears have been bright pink. You'll sit there saying "what do you mean you're sure his ears were pink?"
Here is the best photo I have of his ears prior to today...
My room feels cold to me, will it be cold for him? I have poor hearing so when someone says they "cough", "sneeze" or breath funny will I be able to hear it or is it something you have to get close to them to hear (he doesn't like being handled yet so I can't physically get near to him all the time!)
I haven't even got anywhere close to grooming him yet! As I said he doesn't like to be handled so I don't really want to start doing things that might scare him off being held.
He doesn't make much noise, he runs at the smallest sound or the smallest movement.
I love him to pieces and want to do whats best for him but I get conflicting information all over the place! The pet stores said keep them with the rabbits he'll love it, but the internet says no. The pet shop people SHOWED me what to buy but the internet says its bad for him. The internet has also made me panic about every little thing, it seems that everywhere I've clicked on tonight makes looking after Guinea Pigs the most hard and painful (for him and me) job in the world.
I just want some advice and reassurance from any Guinea Pig lovers and experts out there.
What should I be doing? What should I be looking out for? Is it a nightmare looking after them? I want to make sure Mack has a long and happy life so any advice is appreciated!
These are the two best photos I can find of today and I think yesterday or the day before on my twitter stream. You also get a look into his cage (which he routinely makes a mess of with his hay!)
On the right one you can kind of see what I mean about his ears, they are pink and then brown in places, they actually look a little black around the outside at times (which you can possibly see) unfortunately when I try to get close to get a ear shot he runs away so that will be the best I can get I think. Does he look healthy? Does the cage look alright or should I be changing something?!
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I love him to bits and his name is Mack.
We brought him with a bunny called Barely, they were both aggressive towards other animals but liked each other hence us buying them together, I felt bad that Mack would be left on his own. We kept them in a hutch outside since buying them, that actually might have been over a month ago now! Doesn't feel like it.
Anyway over the weekend I started to worry about Mack so ran out and brought a new cage, lemon scented wood shavings and hay for his bedding. I cleaned the cage when I got it home put down a layer of newspaper, the wood shavings and the hay in the bed side of the cage and put Mack in his new home.
That was Saturday, it is now Friday (only just) and we've had no problems. I cleaned him on Wednesday and will do it every Wednesday, I kind of "clean" the corner where his water bottle leaks every day and put down a bit more of the wood shavings so he doesn't have a damp cage.
He has a mineral block in there, a hay rack filled with blueberry hay, a little dish and a bigger dish both with a mixture of muesli and hay (trying to introduce him to muesli as he'd only ever been eating hay), a pile of sticks as well as a climbing toy that he nibbles on.
I had help from the guys at Pets at Home picking up the stuff I needed, checked the labels on all the treats for the foods that I know he can't have (I'd been reading a blog for a while which told me that even though it might say its for Guinea Pigs it might have things that are bad for them in it) and thought the rest would be easy enough!
I know pets get ill, I've had hamsters, dogs, mice and all sorts before but tonight instead of celebrating with other Whovians world wide I've been reading blogs that seem to fill me with dread!
All I want is simple advice.
1/ Should I be using scented wood shavings?
Everywhere I go I see the answer is no, why the heck would Pets at Home be selling something and telling you to buy it if its bad for them? So far Mack hasn't had any problems that I've noticed but I'm worried he'll suddenly die from all sorts now. If I shouldn't be using scented wood shavings should I be using it at all? Is it better to use a fleece? What is the best thing for him?
2/Do Guinea Pigs ears change a little whilst growing?
This sounds a little weird so I'll explain.
I got him at 6 months, he's probably about 7 or 8 months now (give or take of course as he might not have been completely 6 months when I got him) I'm sure when I got him and till today his ears have been bright pink. You'll sit there saying "what do you mean you're sure his ears were pink?"
Here is the best photo I have of his ears prior to today...
At this present moment I can't get a photo of him for two reasons. One he keeps running away whenever my iPhone gets near his cage and two he's in his bed anyway.
I'm sure his ears were like that but after reading some of these horror stories on fungus infections and mites I've noticed his ears are a little black around the outside. I wanted to know if colouring does ever change? He was only a baby when I got him so he might just be "growing" into his adult colouring?
It sounds stupid I know! It is one of those things, I saw terrible things on the internet then went out of my way to stare at his ears (I took him out of his cage purely to check them!) and suddenly after nothing ever being wrong there is something wrong (in my eyes.)
If I can get a photo I'll edit it in here, but that won't be till tomorrow now I fear as I'm off to bed (to stop myself spending money I don't have) after writing this up.
3/How easy are they to look after?
After a nights worth of strolling through forums and websites I can see about 200 things that can go wrong with my little man. And you know what? It has had me in tears thinking I could accidentally inflict so much pain on him.
For a start I pick up colds pretty easy and it says that I can pass it on to him and he could die from it. How likely is that?
Is it really always you'll find out there is something wrong with them the moment before it could be too late?
Is it really that easy for them to get fungal infections and the like?
I know looking after anything is a labour of love, you do your best but they are still living animals and will always have problems whether you look after them really well or not. I didn't realize that so much COULD go wrong though and am worried (this is my first Guinea Pig) that I'm now going to look at him every day and see 100 things wrong. This kind of ties in with point two and my sudden decision that his ears have changed, I've also only just noticed the area where I guess his penis and anus are, he hasn't really left the bottom of his cage and I've only really noticed it when he's been jumping onto the stage part of the cage to eat his hay today and also when he's slowly shuffled back into his bed area.
I'm a hypochondriac myself and I fear I'll have the same fears over my Mack, since Saturday I've fallen head over heels for the little guy, I loved him before but nothing compared to sharing my room with him. Now I'm panic'd about everything.
My room feels cold to me, will it be cold for him? I have poor hearing so when someone says they "cough", "sneeze" or breath funny will I be able to hear it or is it something you have to get close to them to hear (he doesn't like being handled yet so I can't physically get near to him all the time!)
I haven't even got anywhere close to grooming him yet! As I said he doesn't like to be handled so I don't really want to start doing things that might scare him off being held.
He doesn't make much noise, he runs at the smallest sound or the smallest movement.
I love him to pieces and want to do whats best for him but I get conflicting information all over the place! The pet stores said keep them with the rabbits he'll love it, but the internet says no. The pet shop people SHOWED me what to buy but the internet says its bad for him. The internet has also made me panic about every little thing, it seems that everywhere I've clicked on tonight makes looking after Guinea Pigs the most hard and painful (for him and me) job in the world.
I just want some advice and reassurance from any Guinea Pig lovers and experts out there.
What should I be doing? What should I be looking out for? Is it a nightmare looking after them? I want to make sure Mack has a long and happy life so any advice is appreciated!
These are the two best photos I can find of today and I think yesterday or the day before on my twitter stream. You also get a look into his cage (which he routinely makes a mess of with his hay!)
On the right one you can kind of see what I mean about his ears, they are pink and then brown in places, they actually look a little black around the outside at times (which you can possibly see) unfortunately when I try to get close to get a ear shot he runs away so that will be the best I can get I think. Does he look healthy? Does the cage look alright or should I be changing something?!
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8 October 2013
Brainstorm!
So I've kind of figured out the biggest problem I'm going to have with my Japanese lessons.
Today I was practicing with David and managed to say everything pretty well and recognized the Hiragana 80% of the time. Tomorrow in the lesson I'm going to be a nervous wreck that won't be able to say the simplest of things let alone remember anything.
I think my biggest problem has always been my hearing difficulties, because I can't hear myself sometimes things don't come out of my mouth right (don't start) and it makes me sound completely stupid when actually... I'm not.
I'm now 24 and I still do this with my native tongue, I'm twice as worse with a foreign language but I've never been confident enough to ignore it. I know I do it, I worry about it and I after being told I'm stupid most of my life by teachers who thought speaking difficulties and hearing difficulties meant that people were idiots I don't like anyone thinking that now.
Tomorrow I'm going for my third lesson and not taking my mum, I'm hoping to sit next to the two people I was last week (or at least one of them) and I'm hoping that they'll kind of understand that I'm useless at this but not stupid.
The good thing is I am picking up Japanese quite easy, it is small footsteps obviously, I can only put together a few small sentences but I'm doing better than I ever did with French!
The problem tends to come when our teacher says "now in a group make a conversation up" and the lovely girl next to me turns around and says something and deep down I know what it is but my hearing starts to become patchy because I'm a bag of nerves and I stutter replies to her hoping I'm correct. I can't make a conversation up with my sister or mum without having it broken up and sounds stupid and now I'm doing it in Japanese with strangers.
Wish me luck for tomorrow!
Ohhh and reviews will all start on Thursday, I'm working tomorrow (then have my lesson) and I'm working Wednesday. I'll probably do a few Wednesday but the majority will be up on Thursday and DO NOT ask me where my Fairy Tail blogs are I haven't had a moment to myself recently what with panicing about my Guinea Pig, Japanese lessons and home work and work.
Hope everyone has a nice Tuesday!
Today I was practicing with David and managed to say everything pretty well and recognized the Hiragana 80% of the time. Tomorrow in the lesson I'm going to be a nervous wreck that won't be able to say the simplest of things let alone remember anything.
I think my biggest problem has always been my hearing difficulties, because I can't hear myself sometimes things don't come out of my mouth right (don't start) and it makes me sound completely stupid when actually... I'm not.
I'm now 24 and I still do this with my native tongue, I'm twice as worse with a foreign language but I've never been confident enough to ignore it. I know I do it, I worry about it and I after being told I'm stupid most of my life by teachers who thought speaking difficulties and hearing difficulties meant that people were idiots I don't like anyone thinking that now.
Tomorrow I'm going for my third lesson and not taking my mum, I'm hoping to sit next to the two people I was last week (or at least one of them) and I'm hoping that they'll kind of understand that I'm useless at this but not stupid.
The good thing is I am picking up Japanese quite easy, it is small footsteps obviously, I can only put together a few small sentences but I'm doing better than I ever did with French!
The problem tends to come when our teacher says "now in a group make a conversation up" and the lovely girl next to me turns around and says something and deep down I know what it is but my hearing starts to become patchy because I'm a bag of nerves and I stutter replies to her hoping I'm correct. I can't make a conversation up with my sister or mum without having it broken up and sounds stupid and now I'm doing it in Japanese with strangers.
Wish me luck for tomorrow!
Ohhh and reviews will all start on Thursday, I'm working tomorrow (then have my lesson) and I'm working Wednesday. I'll probably do a few Wednesday but the majority will be up on Thursday and DO NOT ask me where my Fairy Tail blogs are I haven't had a moment to myself recently what with panicing about my Guinea Pig, Japanese lessons and home work and work.
Hope everyone has a nice Tuesday!
1 October 2013
Learning Japanese
I don't think I wrote it on the blog before but last week I started my Japanese lessons at the university!
So far I've been doing really well (well for me!) and have enjoyed it greatly. I will let everyone know how I get on but these lessons are a bright spot for my future which will hopefully end with me traveling to Japan and hopefully working over there for a year.
I might actually stop mishearing/misreading things now!
So far I've been doing really well (well for me!) and have enjoyed it greatly. I will let everyone know how I get on but these lessons are a bright spot for my future which will hopefully end with me traveling to Japan and hopefully working over there for a year.
I might actually stop mishearing/misreading things now!
26 September 2013
Vicious circle of neighbor complaints
So our neighbor complained to our landlord that our dogs bark all day and night, only shit in her garden, we never clean it up and we leave them alone in the house all day.
Now most of that contradicts itself anyway, how can the dogs be outside in their garden all day shitting if we aren't home and lock them up?
But our landlord had to come and tell us off, don't let the dogs in the garden until you've put a fence/chicken wire up and try to stop them barking.
According to her our dogs have the ability to keep a 13 year old up all night in the next house but leave a 4 year old asleep in the room above them.... She's covering her own ass because her kid doesn't go to school!
Anyway that isn't the point, we were nice to the lady when she moved in and took a load of crap from her sons but since then we don't want anything to do with them. It feels like walking on egg shells, oh our dog barked once they might evict us, oh Christy had a temper tantrum they might evict us.... You get what I mean.
We've done everything our landlord has told us to do, kind of. They've said the dogs can go in the garden on their lead, we refuse to anymore we take them out the front of the house whenever they need the toilet. We haven't got a fence up yet as we haven't got the money but we moved one dog out of the house (yes my dog Gimli is living with my nan now, sad times) and the other from the kitchen to the living room.
Thing is we can't defend ourselves against the allegations, after all it is harder to prove that someone is lying than lying in the first place!
We decided not to go tit for tat as there are plenty of things we could complain about from her screaming at her kids at all times of the day to their cats being left to shit in our garden (yes she is that hypocritical!) but we haven't.
Today they put fish guts on our side of the garden for bin bag day. FISH GUTS! So my mum put it back on their side of the garden, they watched my mum and opened the door on our friend Matt who was helping take the bin bags down glared at him and shut the front door. After we finished we watched out the front door as she put the bag back on our side, my mum confronted her and she said it was dog poo.
Now the day BEFORE the landlord came with the complaint we went into her garden and cleaned all dog poo up as Cat did nearly every day anyway, that was over a week ago so how she STILL has dog poo in her garden when we haven't let the dogs out is beyond me and why our dogs suddenly crap out fish guts again is beyond me. The petty mindedness of it all is beyond me too, I mean for fuck sake what the hell is wrong with putting it with her rubbish? Does she think the bin men will judge her for her stinking fish habits?!
So, finally fed up of it all I've e-mailed the landlord with a counter complaint and asking for advice on what to do. I say counter complaint because I've even said I know that she'll probably complain about us anyway, we are living in fear that anything we do will be reported and we can't defend ourselves and even though we've now complained about them and their shouting and cats if the landlord went to see them about it they'll just find a reason to complain about us and we'll be on the back foot because they complained first!
Nowhere on line seems to have any advice on it, other then what I've done which is to say we are worried that she'll complain about things that we aren't even doing and we already know the second a complaint is made there is no real room for defense as then it'll come down to one persons word against the others.
It is just so annoying!
Finally I looked like I was getting a bit better, I was looking forward to work and I started my Japanese lessons.
Then out of the blue this, we've been on egg shells ever since and now my mum has confronted them no doubt they'll hate us for whatever reason.
Ohhh and the Primary School reported my sister to Social Services who are coming tomorrow at ridiculous o'clock in the morning to assess our house (god knows what our next door neighbor will do if she finds that out!) The big problem with that is that our house is full of clutter, the last time social came round here they said they understood the problems. I mean it'll probably help Cat move out faster but then me and my mum are totally fucked so it isn't exactly good news (to be fair we don't need to be cluttered Christy is spoilt and if Cat got off her arse and just got on with life rather then try and do things to go to the council and say "look I've made myself even more cluttered now I REALLY need a house" we'd be fine.)
I won't sleep tonight meaning I'll either be asleep when social come which will probably get Cat marked down or else I'll be grumpy. I've said I'll take the dog out but I don't think I can handle him around people on my own and right now I just feel like crying.
What the hell are my family actually meant to do?
Our neighbor will complain come what may and gods know what will happen with social tomorrow.
I feel tomorrow my life is going to be turned upside down and it is making me ten times worse than I have ever been.
Now most of that contradicts itself anyway, how can the dogs be outside in their garden all day shitting if we aren't home and lock them up?
But our landlord had to come and tell us off, don't let the dogs in the garden until you've put a fence/chicken wire up and try to stop them barking.
According to her our dogs have the ability to keep a 13 year old up all night in the next house but leave a 4 year old asleep in the room above them.... She's covering her own ass because her kid doesn't go to school!
Anyway that isn't the point, we were nice to the lady when she moved in and took a load of crap from her sons but since then we don't want anything to do with them. It feels like walking on egg shells, oh our dog barked once they might evict us, oh Christy had a temper tantrum they might evict us.... You get what I mean.
We've done everything our landlord has told us to do, kind of. They've said the dogs can go in the garden on their lead, we refuse to anymore we take them out the front of the house whenever they need the toilet. We haven't got a fence up yet as we haven't got the money but we moved one dog out of the house (yes my dog Gimli is living with my nan now, sad times) and the other from the kitchen to the living room.
Thing is we can't defend ourselves against the allegations, after all it is harder to prove that someone is lying than lying in the first place!
We decided not to go tit for tat as there are plenty of things we could complain about from her screaming at her kids at all times of the day to their cats being left to shit in our garden (yes she is that hypocritical!) but we haven't.
Today they put fish guts on our side of the garden for bin bag day. FISH GUTS! So my mum put it back on their side of the garden, they watched my mum and opened the door on our friend Matt who was helping take the bin bags down glared at him and shut the front door. After we finished we watched out the front door as she put the bag back on our side, my mum confronted her and she said it was dog poo.
Now the day BEFORE the landlord came with the complaint we went into her garden and cleaned all dog poo up as Cat did nearly every day anyway, that was over a week ago so how she STILL has dog poo in her garden when we haven't let the dogs out is beyond me and why our dogs suddenly crap out fish guts again is beyond me. The petty mindedness of it all is beyond me too, I mean for fuck sake what the hell is wrong with putting it with her rubbish? Does she think the bin men will judge her for her stinking fish habits?!
So, finally fed up of it all I've e-mailed the landlord with a counter complaint and asking for advice on what to do. I say counter complaint because I've even said I know that she'll probably complain about us anyway, we are living in fear that anything we do will be reported and we can't defend ourselves and even though we've now complained about them and their shouting and cats if the landlord went to see them about it they'll just find a reason to complain about us and we'll be on the back foot because they complained first!
Nowhere on line seems to have any advice on it, other then what I've done which is to say we are worried that she'll complain about things that we aren't even doing and we already know the second a complaint is made there is no real room for defense as then it'll come down to one persons word against the others.
It is just so annoying!
Finally I looked like I was getting a bit better, I was looking forward to work and I started my Japanese lessons.
Then out of the blue this, we've been on egg shells ever since and now my mum has confronted them no doubt they'll hate us for whatever reason.
Ohhh and the Primary School reported my sister to Social Services who are coming tomorrow at ridiculous o'clock in the morning to assess our house (god knows what our next door neighbor will do if she finds that out!) The big problem with that is that our house is full of clutter, the last time social came round here they said they understood the problems. I mean it'll probably help Cat move out faster but then me and my mum are totally fucked so it isn't exactly good news (to be fair we don't need to be cluttered Christy is spoilt and if Cat got off her arse and just got on with life rather then try and do things to go to the council and say "look I've made myself even more cluttered now I REALLY need a house" we'd be fine.)
I won't sleep tonight meaning I'll either be asleep when social come which will probably get Cat marked down or else I'll be grumpy. I've said I'll take the dog out but I don't think I can handle him around people on my own and right now I just feel like crying.
What the hell are my family actually meant to do?
Our neighbor will complain come what may and gods know what will happen with social tomorrow.
I feel tomorrow my life is going to be turned upside down and it is making me ten times worse than I have ever been.
16 September 2013
What a week!
So I have been quiet, yes I have. Everything in the last week has changed and I haven't really taken it well.
My sister has started to learn to drive, why is that a big deal? It isn't really she's just rubbing it in and saying "of course you can learn to drive to" in what world will £380 pay for all my bills, a life AND driving lessons? I can't expect David to pay for me every day just because I want to learn to drive, not that it would help seeing I wouldn't be able to afford a car or insurance on it anyway!
Talking of David he's got a job in Lee Mill. Happy news, until you realize it is near on impossible to get from Plymouth to Lee Mill. I'll see him every Friday but doubtful I'll see him much other than that.
Our manager has definitely left, no one told me this I found out when on the job centre website. Obviously not important enough to know about these things, or the fact they have advertised for another part time place with more hours than mine.... Yeah they can't find extra hours for me but they can hire someone completely different.
Adam has left work because no one bothered to talk to him about the job and they basically just gave the job to Tom. I met Adam in my first week or work and I'll miss him.
It just seemed like a week where everyone got on with their lives and mine just stagnated even more.
You can tell I'm not a happy bunny when I haven't even read the new Fairy Tail chapter!
Today I took a positive step forward in my life though by registering with Pertemps to see if I can get some temp jobs or something and just disappear from this job. Me and David also put our name down for a housing to see if we can get an affordable flat in the future.
But all in all I've had a pretty meh week. Just meh.
My sister has started to learn to drive, why is that a big deal? It isn't really she's just rubbing it in and saying "of course you can learn to drive to" in what world will £380 pay for all my bills, a life AND driving lessons? I can't expect David to pay for me every day just because I want to learn to drive, not that it would help seeing I wouldn't be able to afford a car or insurance on it anyway!
Talking of David he's got a job in Lee Mill. Happy news, until you realize it is near on impossible to get from Plymouth to Lee Mill. I'll see him every Friday but doubtful I'll see him much other than that.
Our manager has definitely left, no one told me this I found out when on the job centre website. Obviously not important enough to know about these things, or the fact they have advertised for another part time place with more hours than mine.... Yeah they can't find extra hours for me but they can hire someone completely different.
Adam has left work because no one bothered to talk to him about the job and they basically just gave the job to Tom. I met Adam in my first week or work and I'll miss him.
It just seemed like a week where everyone got on with their lives and mine just stagnated even more.
You can tell I'm not a happy bunny when I haven't even read the new Fairy Tail chapter!
Today I took a positive step forward in my life though by registering with Pertemps to see if I can get some temp jobs or something and just disappear from this job. Me and David also put our name down for a housing to see if we can get an affordable flat in the future.
But all in all I've had a pretty meh week. Just meh.
10 September 2013
Thinking of a way out...
Well most of the people who have put up with my moaning know I'm having troubled times at work recently so I've spent most of my free time on sick leave looking for a new job and looking for something different.
I really want to travel, I know my photography and writing skills suck to I won't be able to get into a travel job that way.
I guess you'd have to be real lucky to get onto one of the big cruises and even then I've heard staff have no time to get away from the boat anyway.
Other than that it seems you have to be in childcare or able to finance getting somewhere, getting to know the place and becoming a tour guide... Or becoming and English teacher which is a no-no for me as I can hardly hear what people say to me at the best of times!
Failing traveling I wanted to work with animals but the only zoo's close to me will be a pain to get to. Paignton is at least 2 hours away and 2 buses or a bus and 2 trains, Newquay is a bus and a train and about 2 hours away, Living Coast is the same and Dartmoor doesn't really have any transport from Plymouth other than one bus that is irregular at the best of times!
Pet shops... I've been looking but there never seems to be an opening.
I don't even care if I moved away and ended up working in an office in London or something! But that would mean having money to move and I don't earn half enough to do that.
When you get turned down for everything from pushing trolleys in ASDA to underpaid office jobs it isn't exactly easy to get away.
The big problem for me is I have a feeling they are trying to get rid of me now at work, our manager has officially left and they are also looking for another part time member of staff with one more hour then I have (it might sound silly but I've been begging for two hours for years as it takes me up to at least 16!)
I just wish I had some sort of skill! I envy people who do. I thought once upon a time I could write but I really can't, I love taking photos but they are usually blurred and pointless... My sister always seems to be able to exceed in whatever she wants to do WHEN she wants to do it yet I turn my mind onto things and I fail every time. I mean Miss Getting-Pregnant-at-16 is now learning how to drive as she earns double the amount I do in a month, she keeps rubbing it in as well! She's changed her mind about her future about a million times before and after she gave birth but she finds it so easy to get into courses and with her being on benefits she usually gets it all funded anyway whilst I have to pay.
Don't tell me she works for these things because I live with her and can tell you honestly she does shit all most of the day but be a bad mother and ignore all the pets she brought purely because she thought it would make the council give her a house!
Just for once I'd like SOMETHING to go my way. Full time hours on a temporary or permanent basis. If it is just temporary fine because I can save up, get the experience and move away to London or something! Just a little, or in my case going from 14 to anything over 20 hours, extra money so I COULD learn to drive or even learn a new language, splash out on a course that might mean I could move into a better area. Just something!
Any ideas on ways to even just make a small amount of extra money would be helpful! I thought about adding adsense to the blog but I doubt I'd get anything. I'd love to earn just a little bit so next year I could go abroad on holiday and maybe see if I could do a travel blog on the side! I'd love to do anything!
So readers help! Any ideas what a really under talented, bog standard, too shy to talk to people geek could do in lovely Plymouth? (England)
I really want to travel, I know my photography and writing skills suck to I won't be able to get into a travel job that way.
I guess you'd have to be real lucky to get onto one of the big cruises and even then I've heard staff have no time to get away from the boat anyway.
Other than that it seems you have to be in childcare or able to finance getting somewhere, getting to know the place and becoming a tour guide... Or becoming and English teacher which is a no-no for me as I can hardly hear what people say to me at the best of times!
Failing traveling I wanted to work with animals but the only zoo's close to me will be a pain to get to. Paignton is at least 2 hours away and 2 buses or a bus and 2 trains, Newquay is a bus and a train and about 2 hours away, Living Coast is the same and Dartmoor doesn't really have any transport from Plymouth other than one bus that is irregular at the best of times!
Pet shops... I've been looking but there never seems to be an opening.
I don't even care if I moved away and ended up working in an office in London or something! But that would mean having money to move and I don't earn half enough to do that.
When you get turned down for everything from pushing trolleys in ASDA to underpaid office jobs it isn't exactly easy to get away.
The big problem for me is I have a feeling they are trying to get rid of me now at work, our manager has officially left and they are also looking for another part time member of staff with one more hour then I have (it might sound silly but I've been begging for two hours for years as it takes me up to at least 16!)
I just wish I had some sort of skill! I envy people who do. I thought once upon a time I could write but I really can't, I love taking photos but they are usually blurred and pointless... My sister always seems to be able to exceed in whatever she wants to do WHEN she wants to do it yet I turn my mind onto things and I fail every time. I mean Miss Getting-Pregnant-at-16 is now learning how to drive as she earns double the amount I do in a month, she keeps rubbing it in as well! She's changed her mind about her future about a million times before and after she gave birth but she finds it so easy to get into courses and with her being on benefits she usually gets it all funded anyway whilst I have to pay.
Don't tell me she works for these things because I live with her and can tell you honestly she does shit all most of the day but be a bad mother and ignore all the pets she brought purely because she thought it would make the council give her a house!
Just for once I'd like SOMETHING to go my way. Full time hours on a temporary or permanent basis. If it is just temporary fine because I can save up, get the experience and move away to London or something! Just a little, or in my case going from 14 to anything over 20 hours, extra money so I COULD learn to drive or even learn a new language, splash out on a course that might mean I could move into a better area. Just something!
Any ideas on ways to even just make a small amount of extra money would be helpful! I thought about adding adsense to the blog but I doubt I'd get anything. I'd love to earn just a little bit so next year I could go abroad on holiday and maybe see if I could do a travel blog on the side! I'd love to do anything!
So readers help! Any ideas what a really under talented, bog standard, too shy to talk to people geek could do in lovely Plymouth? (England)
29 August 2013
Food watch 28.8.13 (late post)
So my meal last night which I cooked. Just thought I might share what I've been cooking recently. I have a bit of chicken, chips, garlic bread and baby carrots. The chicken was half a chicken with garlic and lemon (?) it is alright but I probably would just leave it as the chicken in future and not put the sauce on it at all.
I love baby carrots! Will probably pop up in a lot of me meals this week until we run out!
Everything was brought at Farm Foods I believe apart from possible the chicken which could have come from Morrisons... Or anywhere, my mum got it the other week and we've only just eaten it.
My new pet
Say hello to Mack my brand new Guinea Pig!
I brought him on the weekend and he's a little nervous but I love him to pieces. I mainly call him The Pork because he had a name when I brought him and no one would let me change his name (yeah he might be my pet but my family are mean.)
We brought him with a rabbit called Barley, according to the people in the pet shop Mack really doesn't get on with other Guinea Pigs so they had to keep him with Barley and they told us it would be totally fine to keep them together, since then I've read it can be quite dangerous so at the moment am a little worried about my bundle of joy.
He's doing fine at the moment though.
He will be a Pork of many names though!
4 days to "sort myself out"
So.... I have four days till I go back and to be honest I think I'm in a worse place then I was when I went on the sick note.
I know I used to be pretty emotional all the time back then but now I've become worse, I'm always just about to cry, I can't face going to bed because I'll be on my own with nothing to stop my mind wandering and I keep losing eye sight in my left eye.
I really want to be going back to work, in fact I wanted to work this week I hate the fact I'm not working but I feel that I'm no where near good enough to go back. I've become a lot worse and that sucks.
Need to go to the doctors on Friday, mainly because I can't do it tomorrow as I'm busy with my sister.
I know I used to be pretty emotional all the time back then but now I've become worse, I'm always just about to cry, I can't face going to bed because I'll be on my own with nothing to stop my mind wandering and I keep losing eye sight in my left eye.
I really want to be going back to work, in fact I wanted to work this week I hate the fact I'm not working but I feel that I'm no where near good enough to go back. I've become a lot worse and that sucks.
Need to go to the doctors on Friday, mainly because I can't do it tomorrow as I'm busy with my sister.
26 August 2013
7 Days left to "sort myself out"
So as you know I had a week (well just over a week) sick note given to me on Thursday for work related stress.
I went to the doctors because my face had swollen to twice the size it usually is, I was really ill, dizzy all the time and WANTED TO GET BETTER TO GO TO WORK! I felt bad letting people down, especially as this week I was meant to be doing 5 days whereas everyone else was doing 4 because of the bank holiday. I felt terrible having to have my two days off last week and wanted to be fighting fit for this week.
My doctor said I wasn't ill I was stressed and run down and needed the time off before I had a complete breakdown or ended up in the hospital after working myself to a breaking point.
Mentally I'm not the healthiest person, and people at work should know that other than my assistant manager who has only been in the job since April. I let stupid shit get on top of me, I feel like I let people down when I have to cancel on them in any shape or form... Retail might not be the best sector for me but I've done a damn good job for nearly 4 freakin' years now!
Since Tragic (our old assistant manager) left in February the over time has been non-stop! Because our supervisor only wants to do four days (which is fair enough) I get piled with quite a bit of over time myself. Now usually I don't whine, if I do its because I want a little more or fairer hours when I am doing it, but these last few weeks have been so stressful they've felt like months instead of weeks.
Every week there is something different. At first our area manager made our warehouse unsafe and unworkable and yet I was being sent in there to do normal work AND warehouse work (that I'm technically not meant to do) and I just did it. Then EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD was our fault not his fault (typical management) which meant our manager who had been on holiday for two weeks walked out.
I ran myself ragged trying to help, and yeah I had to cancel the odd day here and there because I'd done too much, but I never signed up to do two people's work, which is what we've all had to do because our part time warehouse man hasn't done anything. I've made doctors appointments and cancelled them to help at work, meaning my health went from borderline to the point my doctor was close to sending me to the hospital over the weekend because he was so worried about me.
Now I just feel I'm getting snide comments and probably people talking behind my back.
The doctor and nurse said it is so common in people my age in retail to need time away from it all, mainly because we haven't got the benefit of hindsight. We worry because we think it is the end of the world if we lose our job, whereas most of the people putting pressure on us or who would whisper about "why do they need time off for stress" have forgotten how stressful it is. It got to me more than others maybe because I don't stand on the same ground, being a recovering recluse my comfort zone is on here, tucked away in my bedroom on my computer.
I don't know why I've become so bad I need to be off on sick, I don't know why the stress got to me and no one else other than our manager. I know it was no where near as bad as what happened to her BUT I DIDN'T GO LOOKING FOR A SICK NOTE AND DIDN'T THINK I WAS TOO STRESSED TO WORK!
Why do I look like I'm shouting that point out?
Because I'm almost certain that someone is being snide about me online.
I wasn't too sure to begin with but even if they aren't it has got to me!
I couldn't even fucking SEE properly yesterday, my eyesight went for half the damn day. Do you know how scary that is? Especially to someone who only finds happiness in books and online?! I burst into tears every 10 minutes, I'm trying to act normally but I feel like if anyone other than my family talk to me I might just break down. And yet I feel like I'm the bad guy!
I'm trying not to but every time I think about going back it drives me over the edge, I've had two panic attacks today thinking about going back to work.
The stupid thing is I'm thinking about it because I want to go back! I love my job (to a point) and I don't want to be at home all the time. I want to work, I want to help when they need it most. I hate being ill and I hate being so weak.
All my friends have told me to delete my work colleague because it won't help me get better, in fact its put me one step behind where I was. How is that going to help? I work in a place with only 5 members of staff (including me and my manager, my manager still has like two weeks after I come back on sick so that is only 4 for two weeks if she even comes back!) deleting her off of Facebook will make everything more awkward. The same with Twitter. She might not even be talking about me!
So my sick note runs out on the 2nd, that is 7 days to get better.
I also have to, before next Monday, get in touch with my assistant manager to find out when I'm coming back.
I understand why I need a week off, I really do understand that, but this whole "take a week away, you'll look at the situation differently and you'll be able to return in a better place then you left" just isn't going to work. ESPECIALLY as I didn't leave because I was stressed. I'm now stressed that people think I've gone to the doctors and got a week off because I'm lazy/mentally unstable.
Why can't life be simple?!
I went to the doctors because my face had swollen to twice the size it usually is, I was really ill, dizzy all the time and WANTED TO GET BETTER TO GO TO WORK! I felt bad letting people down, especially as this week I was meant to be doing 5 days whereas everyone else was doing 4 because of the bank holiday. I felt terrible having to have my two days off last week and wanted to be fighting fit for this week.
My doctor said I wasn't ill I was stressed and run down and needed the time off before I had a complete breakdown or ended up in the hospital after working myself to a breaking point.
Mentally I'm not the healthiest person, and people at work should know that other than my assistant manager who has only been in the job since April. I let stupid shit get on top of me, I feel like I let people down when I have to cancel on them in any shape or form... Retail might not be the best sector for me but I've done a damn good job for nearly 4 freakin' years now!
Since Tragic (our old assistant manager) left in February the over time has been non-stop! Because our supervisor only wants to do four days (which is fair enough) I get piled with quite a bit of over time myself. Now usually I don't whine, if I do its because I want a little more or fairer hours when I am doing it, but these last few weeks have been so stressful they've felt like months instead of weeks.
Every week there is something different. At first our area manager made our warehouse unsafe and unworkable and yet I was being sent in there to do normal work AND warehouse work (that I'm technically not meant to do) and I just did it. Then EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD was our fault not his fault (typical management) which meant our manager who had been on holiday for two weeks walked out.
I ran myself ragged trying to help, and yeah I had to cancel the odd day here and there because I'd done too much, but I never signed up to do two people's work, which is what we've all had to do because our part time warehouse man hasn't done anything. I've made doctors appointments and cancelled them to help at work, meaning my health went from borderline to the point my doctor was close to sending me to the hospital over the weekend because he was so worried about me.
Now I just feel I'm getting snide comments and probably people talking behind my back.
The doctor and nurse said it is so common in people my age in retail to need time away from it all, mainly because we haven't got the benefit of hindsight. We worry because we think it is the end of the world if we lose our job, whereas most of the people putting pressure on us or who would whisper about "why do they need time off for stress" have forgotten how stressful it is. It got to me more than others maybe because I don't stand on the same ground, being a recovering recluse my comfort zone is on here, tucked away in my bedroom on my computer.
I don't know why I've become so bad I need to be off on sick, I don't know why the stress got to me and no one else other than our manager. I know it was no where near as bad as what happened to her BUT I DIDN'T GO LOOKING FOR A SICK NOTE AND DIDN'T THINK I WAS TOO STRESSED TO WORK!
Why do I look like I'm shouting that point out?
Because I'm almost certain that someone is being snide about me online.
I wasn't too sure to begin with but even if they aren't it has got to me!
I couldn't even fucking SEE properly yesterday, my eyesight went for half the damn day. Do you know how scary that is? Especially to someone who only finds happiness in books and online?! I burst into tears every 10 minutes, I'm trying to act normally but I feel like if anyone other than my family talk to me I might just break down. And yet I feel like I'm the bad guy!
I'm trying not to but every time I think about going back it drives me over the edge, I've had two panic attacks today thinking about going back to work.
The stupid thing is I'm thinking about it because I want to go back! I love my job (to a point) and I don't want to be at home all the time. I want to work, I want to help when they need it most. I hate being ill and I hate being so weak.
All my friends have told me to delete my work colleague because it won't help me get better, in fact its put me one step behind where I was. How is that going to help? I work in a place with only 5 members of staff (including me and my manager, my manager still has like two weeks after I come back on sick so that is only 4 for two weeks if she even comes back!) deleting her off of Facebook will make everything more awkward. The same with Twitter. She might not even be talking about me!
So my sick note runs out on the 2nd, that is 7 days to get better.
I also have to, before next Monday, get in touch with my assistant manager to find out when I'm coming back.
I understand why I need a week off, I really do understand that, but this whole "take a week away, you'll look at the situation differently and you'll be able to return in a better place then you left" just isn't going to work. ESPECIALLY as I didn't leave because I was stressed. I'm now stressed that people think I've gone to the doctors and got a week off because I'm lazy/mentally unstable.
Why can't life be simple?!
23 August 2013
24 Hours of One Piece....
I call it that... Basically I will post one review of One Piece every hour for the whole day tomorrow. So from midnight to midnight you'll get a chapter review. If I have the time I might even get around to a few others.
So yes if you are just viewing my page tomorrow be warned... A lot of activity in 24 hours.
So yes if you are just viewing my page tomorrow be warned... A lot of activity in 24 hours.
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